I dont know why i call this blog, fighting cancer, it not a fight! The cancer has won already, I have to accept what is going to happen now; nothing I can do will make it go away or kill it off. I just have to let the surgeons cut it out and take half of me with it. I will be physically different afterwards, acceptance that this is going to happen in a hard thing. After the operation will be the fight to ensure it does not come back, until then i have to go through a tough time of radio and chemo therapies and be strong through this time. It has already won a battle but not the war, i will rid this from me. I keep asking myself what have I done to deserve this, why me, and lots more unanswerable questions. There are no answers, it just happens, it just is, just as I am I, and I will be I afterwards, maybe just a little smaller i, but nonetheless i still am I.
Later is the Oncologist at the hospital to inform me of my treatment and the timetable for it. I will post that later. Please no more shocks; its hard enough as it is.
Let’s win this war....let the fight begin...I got you back Lieutenant Cox!!! - Imran Farid
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DeleteI don't think the cancer has won already Mo!! The battle has just started mate, so you better keep your spirits high (and by that I don't mean alcohol :) :) . I think it is very natural to think deeply as you do now, it is a lot to take on mentally as it is all new. Once you appreciate the new battle ground I am sure you will fight it like the Lt Cox that Imran remembers !
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