Meeting with Surgeon

Today 26th March I met with my surgeon. He explained to me all about the cancer and what stage it was at. It is worse than first thought, The cancer has been classed as T3A is 4cm in size and growing,

The cancer has probably spread but they are not 100% sure yet but the surgeon says that is is most likely to have spread into a neighbouring area. The cancer is growing inward and has breached the surface area and is now digging itself in. He confirmed that i would have a combinatioon of radiotherapy and chemotherapy. I have a meeting with the oncologist tomorrow to confirm the timeframe. The surgeon says that the chemotherapy will kill any cancerous cells in the bloodstream and stop it from migrating to lungs or liver which would be worse. The surgeon says the operation will be a major one and that i would probably spend some time in hospital. The could be complications like chest infections and normal operation dangers. The cancer is in a very bad place and that the surgery would change my life forever, there was only one option to take and was the operation.

I feel so upset and helpless as I did not realise it was so bad and this was the worse case scenario that I could imagine. I am devastated and I will never be the same person again, both physically and mentally, I feel I shall never be whole again and it will be noticable and tangible. I want to say more but I need to come to terms with this first.

What lies ahead is not good but I have to be strong and carry on ......